empowers Yogis, Dancers, Artists, Vegetarians, Vegans, Raw Fooders, Fruitarians, Entrepreneurs, Executives, Salesmen, Travelers, Meditators, Artists, Singles, Couples to integrate Yoga, Meditation and Raw Food into daily living practices for outrageous transformation of body, mind and spirit.
My Story lifetime ATHLETE/DANCER/YOGI 108 pounds turned OBESE/STATIONARY/ZOMBIE 275 pounds after having a spiritual emergency out of body experience, I was labeled BIPOLAR and put on massive drugs. I spent 6 years being overmedicated, medicated, gained excessive weight, experienced multiple side effects, chronic insomnia, hypothyroidism and chronic pain. Lost 75 pounds and met what I thought was the love of my life at 200 pounds. He helped me feel alive again. We laughed. I had found my playmate and the best lover I ever experienced. I moved in with plans for getting married. My health went sour, he accused me of cheating on him (which I didn't) and I caught him cheating on me, texting with a obese married whore, proof of 150 text messages complete with naked pictures from her to him. He lied, denied, cheated and manipulated me into believing his lies for 3 years. When I caught him a second time after he insisted that "nothing was going on" and they were "just friends" HE and SHE conspired to ruin me, so they made up a bunch of lies and claimed that I harassed them, and ultimately I went to JAIL in Delaware at the Women's Correctional Unit and paid a hell of a price. In Jail, it became very clear that I needed to focus on myself, my life and stay hell away from Him and Her. Court, Lawyers, no contact orders and the truth...still didn't stop that crazy feeling that I have for him...he is my Kryptonite.
As I rebuild myself and my life, each day I get stronger. I have immense gratitude today and realize that everything...EVERYTHING is perfect, just as it is, all the good, ALL THE GOOD and all the evil, ALL THE EVIL and it all balances out. I FOUND GRATITUDE, humility and compassion for myself and for others.
With what I have personally experienced, I share my outrageous transformation and journey with my clients so that they can breakthru their obstacles and find peace within themselves even while confined in a "jailcell" of their own making. A Sleep Study for my chronic insomnia led me to participating in Cognitive Brain Therapy with the NeuroScienceTeam at Hopkins and the amazing realization that my prior car accident caused an original brain injury that was undetected which is now treatable. After 30 weeks of cognitive brain treatment, my IQ increased, my literary and math skills improved dramatically and I am able to perform again. Today, I am completedly off all medications. Once again, I feel energized and inspired. So far, I have lost 120 pounds to date. Only 47 pounds left to get back to where I started from. I remind myself daily that this is a process and that it takes time, dedication and patience to undo what you did and to get back into integrity with yourself.
My journey with food started with a bet that I couldn't stop eating red meat for 30 days. First, I stopped eating chicken, then seafood and offiically declared myself vegetarian 25 years ago. I transitioned to vegan as my primary way of eating. While living in California I ate a 100% raw vegan living raw food diet in a 100% raw food house with regular house guests being David Wolfe, Shazzie and the Boutenkos. While living my Dream Life in San Diego California teaching yoga, meditation and raw food full time and surfing for fun, I wanted to go home and visit my family and show them that I had "made it".
While in Baltimore visiting family, I experienced a major tragedy May 7, 2004 and had a head on Car Accident by a drunk driver–where I found myself broken with a shattered ankle, broken leg, whiplashed neck, injured back, torn hip flexors, and torn shoulder rotators. Needless to say, this car accident and the injuries I sustained changed my life as I knew it. For starters, I lost my high profile lifestyle of living in San Diego CA, lost my celebrities, professional athletes and entrepreneur clients that I spent years building up. While I was stuck in Baltimore MD living with family to heal, many people said I should give up teaching yoga and find another career with my injuries. I persisted to break thru and challenged my routines. I found ways to heal myself despite the negative impact from others. I went back to 100% raw when I was able to walk again. I trained my body, mind and spirit in Yoga, Meditation, Pilates and raw food and rebuilt myself and my life by March 2005.
I met what I thought was the love of my life then and got engaged, we were Merritt Athletic Club's "Winning Yoga Couple" and we started planning our wedding together. I had the ring, the dress, the location, I moved all my stuff into his house and we integrated our lives together. That Christmas, "the girl that got away" came back into Baltimore and swept my fiance off his feet and back into her arms. Later this same woman became my boss at Merritt. Needless to say I was done with him and her and I left the club to pursue my corporate interests in teaching yoga, meditation and raw food. I succeeded in rebuilding my yoga career and that same man came back to me 6 months later saying he messed up and made a horrible mistake and that I was his dream girl. I caved and gave him another chance. Another engagement ring, new wedding plans and then he broke my heart again with word that he wanted to be "polygamous" and not "monogamous". I cut all contact with him and focused on my career.
A year later after adding several large corporate clients to my client list, I finally felt that I deserved a vacation and headed back to California to reconnect with my yoga clients and consider moving back. While there standing in the sand on Malibu Beach, I experienced an out of body chakra blowout spiritual emergency experience. I regressed back to age 3 and was hospitalized, labeled "BiPolar" and mandated to take meds. I left high on Risperadol, my legs went numb and I was paralyzed from the drugs. My mom promised to be there for me in Baltimore, however, in my crazy drugged up funk, I ended up getting off my plane at the layover and found myself renting cars, booking a hotel at the Opryland Hotel at $500 night, went on a shopping spree, lost my iphone and ended the evening walking the streets naked in Tennessee after I let go of my identity and abandoned my purse and all my identification and bank cards in a stream. My family came to my rescue driving from Baltimore to Tennesee Thanksgiving weekend 2008. My family hired yoga subs to finish off my corporate contracts for 2008 and my Yoga Teacher Trainees and my X fiance yoga instructor subbed many of my classes in my absence. Ultimately I lost my yoga clients in Baltimore as I embarked on my personal healing journey living with family.
I tried a variety of psych meds in an effort to "get better" for 6 years. To not be able to use your brain efficiently, I can't even express how difficult that was for me as a highly educated person gone zombie. The weight gain of 30 to 50 pounds every time the doctors changed my meds was the worst. My family hired personal trainers and the progress was very slow because of being medicated.
When I finally got on Lithium, the natural salt medication, after 3 years of being overmedicated and living like a Zombie on other psych drugs, my life started to become more stable and I started to drive a car and to have a very small life while trapped inside a 275 pound body. During the process I was on various medications and experienced a variety of terrible side effects. I ate all kinds of crap in my depressive funk. I blacked out, had poor memory, experienced crazy rashes all over my body, had chronic insomnia, mood swings, thyroid problems, angry outbursts and had seizures. And all I wanted was my body back and the ability to put together a coherent sentence. The idea of working again full time was so out of reach for me.
When I got to 200 pounds I signed up on OKCupid, DateHookup and Match with hopes to meet a companion and maybe even find true love. I had a series of flop dates including No-Teeth Heroin Addict Man, Short Man pretending to be 6 foot, Critical Christian Man, Visual Sex on a Stick who couldn't perform, Guy who Jumped on me in my car and Pulled <"it "> out without warning, LawnMower Alcoholic Man who drank 23 beers at dinner and was on his "best behavior". Needless to say, the dating scene was disappointing.
Until...I sent a simple email "U R Cute" to a hot Italian man in Delaware and after our first date, I thought he was The One for me. We had the best conversations, we had alot in common, we liked the same style furniture, he had fashionable style for himself and for me, he was a gentleman with a serious dose of manners, and our chemistry, the sex was unbelieveable, the best I ever had. I thought I had found my best friend for real. I later found out he has Bipolar. I thought, great, we can help each other out and overcome the challenges of Bipolar together. We dated 3 years and I moved in to his house in Delaware with plans to get married. He made many promises and didn't follow through. With his active depression and him being on meds and me being on meds, I gave him a long rope and I was very compassionate and very understanding.
Unfortunately he became mesmerized by ONE married HO Nurse in Newark DE and she threw herself at him with text messages, naked pics of herself at 350 pounds, phone calls, preparing food for him with her Tupperware in my kitchen, leaving beer in my alcohol-free refrigerator, secret rendezvous with him at her house, out in public and in his house while I was out of OUR home teaching yoga or at doctors appointments. He denied that anything ever happened between them, then he changed his story that they dated in 2007 but the sex was so awlful, well she was still married then...hello! I caught him in his lies and confiscated his cell phone and found the proof of their affair around Christmastime 2013. I took pictures of the proof to ground myself that this really was happening to me. She insisted that we all meet and get to know each other, so she could clear the air and prove there was nothing going on and that her husband knew all about Him. I agreed to this ridiculous meeting, that meeting never happened. Instead they teamed up against me and made up lies and bashed my reputation.
In addition, I discovered he was dating many other "online" women with his secret "Dot System" on his large paper calendar where he marked who he had sex with and who he blatantly dated on his electronic calendar, while dating me "exclusively" "monogamously while he had an affair with his married HO nurse who is a member of a sex service where she hooks up with random guys to share sex where she encouraged my X to become a member of this great way to have easy sex. He had 13 active dating profiles up when my father found his active dating profile on Match. I was in denial, how could this possibly be, he loved me, my family adored him? He had pictures that I took of him up and active on all his dating sites. I was seriously disgusted, hurt and betrayed by the one person who I gave my entire heart to and a piece of me died all over again.
Instead of being able to make a clean break, I was accused of harassing both of them, and they both made up a series of lies which put me in Jail over Easter holiday. My family bailed me out the same day I turned myself in but I was stuck in Jail for 7 days. That time in Jail was horrible. There is no such thing as "water" in jail, it is metallic warm sludge. I was fooled the first day thinking I was drinking lemonade during mealtime and I drugged myself up without even knowing it, until my roommate informed me never to drink that again, this is what jails do to minimize inmate conflicts.
Being vegetarian, there were "NO vegetarian options in jail" so I ate a piece of fruit or canned fruit and got reprimanded for "not eating enough". I went through major Detox as the Jail never gave me my required meds, and I was refused clean pure water even after I signed all their required forms. I was beaten, sexually threatened daily and mentally was going thru major detox. In the tiny jail cell that I shared with 2 other inmates, I threw up all over myself, my bed, my clothes, the floor, had to go to the bathroom and pee and poop in front of other people. During "recreation time" where we were allowed to go outside, I showed my Power Yoga strength and position by practicing Sun Saluations on the grass and caused some major riff. Later the guards used me as their "Exercise Expert" and I taught yoga and meditation every day that I spent in Jail, in exchange I was given a glass of iced tea for my offerings. One thing that every inmate woman shared with me was this: They fell in love with a man, they served that man for years with their time, love and devotion, That man cheated on them, They caught the man that cheated and tried to have a conversation about the cheating, the man refused to own up, these woman got so mad that they took the law into their own hands and picked up a knife or gun or another heavy object and retaliated against the Man. Many of these women were survivors of physical and mental abuse dished out from their "loved one" until they couldn't take it anymore. These women are serving time for their crimes. These women were just like me and you until they snapped. I also had to call the police on my X for his verbal and physical abuse towards me during our "No Contact" time and he now has a criminal record for abuse.
August 4, 2014 I finally had my trials in Wilmington Delaware. He didn't have the balls to even face me and somehow was allowed to not even have to show up in the court room. All cases regarding Harassment between Him and Her were dropped and dismissed. I was reprimanded for violating the "No Contact Order" and mandated to 3 years probation with the State of Delaware. The married HO Nurse retaliated against me with more lies that I have a "criminal and felony record" (which I have never had) and the Judge struck that from the record because none of it was true. The Judge changed my sentence from 3 years to 1 year and I am not allowed to hang out in Delaware for one year, only to drive my car throught Delaware on 95. As for my trial where I am the victim for Domestic Violence, I am not allowed to attend because of my "No Contact Order". He was mandated to take Anger Management Classes in Delaware. I still wonder how our amazing relationship went from inspiring love to utter disaster. I hope that He and She find true happiness with each other in their "secret" relationship or with someone new. With all that has happened, I have come to a place of gratitude and appreciation for all that is. Truth is I long for those adoring moments that I experienced whether it was "real" or not. I am still hopeful that one day soon I will feel loved again for real and that it will last.
I went from a healthy fit yoga athlete size 2 at 108 pounds to an obese zombie size 2X 275 pound sloth. I gained confidence with slow progress. My transformation continues. I am currently at 150 pounds. I eat 90% raw vegan living raw food with some vegan/vegetarian cooked meals. I train with yoga, mediation, pilates, and many yoga/dance DVD videos. At home, I prepare everything raw vegan and live up to 105 degrees. Eating out, socially I stay vegetarian/vegan/raw but I don't drive myself crazy about doing it 100% and allow myself to just be. I supplement my efforts with superfoods, minerals and vitamins and make it a point to cleanse and fast with each change of season. I am determined to transform my body, mind and spirit how ever long it takes. I decided my life is too simple...I want to complicate the hell out of it.
Utilizing the Collapse Process and Equilibration, private Psychotherapy and private Coaching I am balancing out my emotions and getting more specific about where I've been, where I am and where I am going. My relationship with my family, friends, clients and community is improving. All the while observing, journaling, integrating and applying what I've learned, in the moment, implementing it directly into my life and continuously noticing how I feel and realigning my personal GPS. Outrageous Transformation is what I share with my clients. My way of practicing yoga is very different from what my competition does. I require the real you to reveal yourself with integrity with all your interactions with me. Your addictions, bad habits, disrganization and shortcomings will fall away with your continued persistance of showing up on the yoga mat, clearing your mind and emotions from your past and keeping your focus on the here and now and what is possible. I am currently taking on new clients in the Baltimore metro area. I have a private yoga studio in Nottingham MD for private sessions. Group classes are available with a maximum of 4 participants per class at this time while construction is continuing.
Currently, I am reviewing my journals, sketches and preparing to launch an upcoming Art Show sharing my journey. Stay tuned.
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